It didn’t take long for us to figure out Eric was a strong-willed
child—in retrospect the sentinel moment was probably when he refused taking
anything from a bottle when I went back to work. After his week-long hunger
strikes, my dad finally drove him in every three hours (twenty minutes to our
house, twenty minutes to my workplace, then all again in reverse) so I could
run out in between cases to nurse him in the car.
It wasn’t long before I was in the bookstore taking notes
from every book on the strong-willed child ever written. One phrase that stood
out to me was how one ought to “shape the will without destroying the spirit.”
Sounds nice, but how does one practically do that? I couldn’t find a great
explanation anywhere. Maybe, I thought, it means to discipline in calmness
instead of anger. Or to blame behavior rather than character. Or to give some
options for choice to retain the child’s sense of self-will.
It’s been a few years since then, and I’ve practically come
to realize that teaching a strong-willed boy basically involves three things:
you identify the behavior and learn about your child to understand why it is he
acts that way; you teach him what is wrong about his behavior; you teach him
what underlies the behavior and redirect it to a good or appropriate outlet.
It’s pretty easy to focus only on the second part: his
behavior is unacceptable, and you discipline him for it. In certain situations
that’s all you can or need to do, but if we focus only on this step, I find the
behavior tends to recur, leading to cycles of frustration, and sometimes bad
labeling of the child in your or his mind. He starts to see himself as a bad
person; he gets that what he does is wrong but doesn’t know how to change.
But I think the difference between “shaping the will” and
“destroying the spirit” is like the difference between feeling guilt and
feeling shame. Feeling guilt is when you feel bad about something you did.
Feeling shame is when you feel bad about who you are. I don’t want Eric to feel
bad about who he is, but I do want him to realize what he did was wrong—and so,
I need to be able to separate the two myself. That means I need to learn and
understand why it is he acts a certain way, and only then can I not only give
negative consequences for bad behavior, but affirm and redirect the underlying
good character traits and impulses underlying it.
It sounds simple, but I’m constantly learning more about
Eric: there’s layers and layers, which all play together. There’s the
strong-willed temperament; the highly introverted personality type; the gender
predispositions (highly-competitive, more aggressive and active than his
sister); the tendency to resist change, to rise to a performance; the physical
touch love-language; the changing age-related developmental stage; and more.
Understanding him changes how I discipline and teach him: it
influences my own expectations and views of him, and what I do to get through
to him. For example, when he throws a tantrum, I don’t just give him a time out
(works him up more) or spank him until he submits (ditto). We talk about how
it’s okay to feel angry, or need time to cry, but that we don’t hurt people and
eventually we do need to calm down. What seems to work best is shutting him in
his room to give him time to cry and be mad, but then to promise beforehand
that I will come to get him after five minutes (some folks advocate processing
emotions physically with him but I haven’t found that helpful and it tends to
make me lose my temper).
After five minutes, I come in and ask if he wants to be held
(love language, and I find it almost always is fruitless talking to him before
I hold him a bit). We talk about why what he did was wrong. Usually I can tell
he feels embarrassed or bad about it and we pray to say sorry to God.
But then I also talk about the things inside him that can
make him this way. Instead of “stubborn” or “strong-willed,” I say he has a “strong
heart,” and sometimes it makes him want things a lot, or get very frustrated if
he doesn’t get things, and that can be a really good thing. I talk about how
Mommy is like that. But I talk about how sometimes in our lives, God doesn’t
give us what we strongly want, because he wants us to learn something
important, because it’s not the best for us and he loves us, and ultimately
even if we don’t know why, we have to obey and respect God, and that’s why I
ask him to obey and respect me. We talk about not letting our strong wants
blind us to what others need.
I go through some variation of this often, and sometimes I
can’t get him to say much other than he wants me to hold him, but sometimes I
see a light go on, or he asks a question that shows he’s been processing it
(during this last conversation, “no, Mommy, my heart’s not there, it’s there!”—moving my hand from the center
of his chest to his lower left chest. It’s metaphorical, buddy).
It’s a work in progress, and what works now may not be what
works in another year. But I do think understanding your child, the hows and
whys behind how they act the way they do, is the key to not just enforcing
behavior, but reaching their heart. At least that’s the hope. We’ll see how it
goes.