A few weeks ago, we were playing at a popular neighborhood
park next to the library, and suddenly it hit me how many languages I was
hearing. There was, of course, Mandarin, which I seem to hear everywhere. Some
Cantonese, a South Asian language—Hindustani? Bengali? I heard French and some
type of Eastern European language—Russian or Czech? And of course Spanish.
This place is truly international, probably because of the
tech industry and Stanford drawing global talent, and that still feels strange
to me. How many places in the country are like this? Someone who looks black is
as likely to be African as African-American; someone who looks white could be
from Israel or Italy, as two of Eric’s classmates are. Someone who looks Asian—well,
the possibilities there are endless. Back in Virginia, people either assumed we
were foreigners (“can she speak English?”) or just like them (“what is an Asian
grocery store and why would you go there?”). Most people didn’t know the
difference between Filipino (which Dave often got pegged as), Korean (which I
got pegged as), Chinese, or Taiwanese.
Here, of course, there are not only different types of
Asians, but different generations; you are as likely to meet a first-generation
as a fourth-generation immigrant, and the values, languages, customs and
stereotypes of each are widely different. Sometimes when I’m not driving my
best I wonder if someone pegs me for some bad first-generation Asian driver (is
that terrible to admit? I really can drive in this country; it’s only that I
just moved here and am getting lost again because the GPS-route constantly
changes to accommodate time-of-day traffic!). As a second-generation immigrant
raised in the American south by parents who were themselves Chinese second-generation
immigrants to Taiwan before becoming first-generation immigrants to the U.S., I
can feel more affinity with a Caucasian than an Asian, or with a
first-generation person from Taipei than from Beijing.
I feel more dissonance between how I look and who I am
inside here than I did in Virginia, where
people assumed I was mostly culturally white like them—oddly enough, having a
more homogenous majority made conformity easier. Especially when I grew up in
that homogeneity. My gut reaction is to find the diversity here jarring. It’s a
bit disturbing to be around so many Asians, to sift through all the
geographical and generational distinctions. I feel unnerved by my own ignorance
of various countries, customs and languages. I miss being around more white
people. I feel pressured into speaking Mandarin to my kids, not that that’s a
bad thing.
But I think it’s good to be stretched in a place of global
diversity. It forces me out of cultural ignorance. It makes me care more about
what’s going on outside of our country. It allows me a new measure of ethnic
freedom. It helps me see what assumed mindsets or values are actually ethnic or
cultural mores. It brings those things to my kids. It prepares me for heaven,
where the diversity emphasized isn’t political or socioeconomic as much as
ethnic. Ultimately, it reveals more of God, because each of us, from wherever
we or our parents came from in the world, reflect his image and something
different of his glory.
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